God Is Love.

Tonight was perfect. I glorified God, gave God honor, and gave God praise. And it all happened along side of my brothers; Cory, Josh and Bobby. It’s mind blowing how God works. We turned something completely negative to a positive and gave God glory and honor and praise nearly the entire time.

So yesterday I hurt my right hand. My hand felt like it was bruised, a pain almost unbearable. That night I went to church and while I was worshipping I unintentionally prayed over my hand simply saying, “God please make this pain go away”. After I prayed, I beginning worshipping, seconds later the pain in my hand left me. My mind was blown. I’m ready for my mind to be blown more often.

God has put the spirit of Joy in me tonight, and I’m just loving it. Cannot stop smiling :) Thank You, thank You, thank You!

I want to encounter You in a deeper way. I want to constantly seek Your face. I want to constantly seek Your words. I want to be a person that feels uncomfortable when I’m not giving you acknowledgment. I want the fruits of Your spirit to be so noticeable in me, that people just can’t help, but smile when they are around me.

Tonight, God made me feel so uncomfortable. I asked Him in total respect, “Why are you making me feel this way”, and He told me, “I just want to be acknowledged”. I smiled.

In Your light, I claim my victory.

With God’s spirit in me, I can conquer all!

Tonight I began my journey through Revelations again. And tonight I began to pray for visions of heaven again.

My Role Model

So yesterday, I worked a 6 hour shift at work, it’s not much but it takes some energy out of me. Usually when I get out of work I like to come home and lay down and just rest. So as soon as I started to relax, I heard a voice come in through the front door. I glanced out into the living room and I saw that my cousin Coco was there. Coco is his nickname :) He has always been one of my role models in my spiritually journey to God. So I welcomed him and asked how he was doing. He came over to give my mother a late mother’s day gift. So we began to talk and he asked how the Worship Night the night before was, and we just caught ourself up a little with our lives. Before he was going to leave, he asked if I could go over to his house and help him switch out a washer machine, because his previous one began to malfunction. So without hesitation I said, “Yeah cuz of course”. 

So we got to his house and we switched out the old washer machine with the newer one fairly quickly because haha we are men and that’s what we do. So I thought that since we were done he was just going to take me home quickly afterwards, but he throw some clothes in the washer and suggested that we stick around and wait till the clothes was done washing just to make sure everything was working properly with the washer. So we went into his house and sat in the living room. One of his favorite shows is, General Hospital, so he turned on his television and we watched it for a minute in silence, then Coco asked, “So, how are you, how’s your life been going?”. Without hesitation I told him “Good, so good, I can’t describe to you how good it is”.

I began to tell him about my journey with God this year and how I felt like Job this year. I considered myself to be a great man of God, and this year I felt like God had a meeting with Satan, the same meeting that went on with Job and God basically granted Satan the permission to… attack me. He attacked me spiritually by basically taking away my desires to pursue God, then he attacked my health by giving me chest pains, then he attacked my family by attacking my relationship with my mother and brother, and then the final blow was the attack between my best friend and I. I felt like God wasn’t going to help me until I surrendered completely to Him, until I worshipped Him, until I gave Him praise even through the worse. So that’s exactly what I did, I gave Him praise, I gave Him worship, and I gave Him surrenderance of my life. And as soon as I did all of that, God became my strength again, my grace, my love, and my one desire again.

So I told my cousin Coco everything and he came up to me and gave me a hug. I felt like it was the longest hug we ever had. And in that hug I knew that he was proud of me, I knew that, I now I became a role model to him as well.